fantasy is completely out of reality

every0ne need = sum1 2 cheer up their life....
everyone need = sum1 2 give them some spirit & rebuild the broken pieces of the heart...

everyone need = sum1 2 lean his butt & being a gud listener...

everyone need = sum1 2 lurv them, no matter how they are..

everyone need = sum1 2 keep them accompany in the darkness of life...

everyone need = sum1 2 understand them, in whatever condition..

everyone need = sum1 2 be their soulmate,till the end of their life..

everyone need = sum1 2 walk t0gether & gain an awesome lifestyle..
everyone need = sum1 2 take care of them, either in a poor or a great day....

everyone need = sum1 2 make them feel a relief when a disaster come closer...

# Those are the things that i really need.... and really want 2 point it out..2 whom it may

concern...

dear my sweetheart,

i do lurv u... till the rest of my life.. i willing 2 do anything, juz 4 ur smile...ur happiness and ur satisfaction... i won't ever break ur heart, even once... i really mean it, seriously!!!

i'll shower u wif lots of care & lurv..... i'll treat u as well as i could... diz is my promises...!!!

coz u r my soul.........& hardly, i can't stay without u...4 sure!!! my care & my luf 4 u won't ever b less...till i completely close my eyes, till my heart completely stop beating...till the silent & last breath.... i'll b wif u, now & 4ever...

if i'm walk away all over the world... juz only u, stick on my mind.. it won't slip away, even fade...

a moment with u, makes me feel hunger 4 it when i walk alone... coz i really need u man!!

...........badrul hissham....... I REALLY LURV U..!!!!!!

skit aty wo00okk!!! hish~~ pas 1.. 1.. xabeh2 nk wt aku bengang.. bukan slh aku, tp aku jgk kne cover.. mmg fucking shit lah!!! come 0n la babe! common sense, jgn pntingkn dri.. pk lah org laen sme.. skang aku nk pegang words yg abg aku bg mlm td.. DUN TRUST ANYBODY...
dlu aku slalu pk, ish... hazwani xmo jd selfish..sgt2 xoke.. !! tp memandangkn pe yg menimpa aku skang, d sebabkn oleh "org2 yg selfish" aku jd benci ngn keadaan skeliling... aku xkn simply bg muka lg kt kowg... mampos lah!! wut u gve, u'll get back... strictly i remind u!!! aku xske nk shout out dpan2... pk nk final jerk.. pas ni... gud bye lah k0wg... dh ckup sgt kowg skitkn aty aku...
aku cme de:

1. ABAH YG TERCINTA~~
2. AKAK2 TERSAYANG~~
3. ABG YG MENGGEMBIRAKN SLALU~~
4. MY SYG BADRUL HISSHAM YG MEMBAHAGIAKN SLAMANYA~~
5. ANAK2 BUAH YG SLALU MEMEKAK.. hehehehe.. =p

bg makhluk2 yg xtermasuk dlm list fbret aku... LU BOLEY BLAH!!!! jgn nk memalukn dri nk berbaek ngn aku ye~~
xpyh la smpai aku declare kowg sbagai najis yg mgotorkn life aku yg indah nih... clear enough???
..................................................SEKIAN, TQ....................................................... =)

sengal btol~~

b'fikiran kolot n lgsg xmove forward... xupgradekn dri tuk mmbuka minda seluas2 nya.. juz taw m'bidas tnpa b'fikir, berbaloi ke?? hahaha~~ pe la untung nye... =) ckup2 la.. "polish" dri 2... jgn ble mende remeh temeh pn nk di jdikan isu.. org ceni klu d layan buang msa jea... bla kte muncul, knon nye trasa dri 2 d cabar... hello!! pliz la... juz wasting my time... xpyh la muncul klu xd perlukan.. as long xusik "umah" anda, xpyh nk over oke.... idop klu sntiasa nk touching pn susah.. cena nk b'gaul ngn dunia luar.. org mcm ni slalu nye susah nk trima pndapat org.. die jea yg btol kot.. perhaps~~ haha..
mlas nk shout out lbeh2.. sniri pnye "umah" pn, de jgak yg nyebok nnt... pdhal xde plak mention spekah "beliau"... nk panas ati lbeh2 kt "umah" org pehal... haiyaa.... klu nk mcm2, pk dlu msg2 yg lpas... as a proven, u might b in jail.. jgn main2.... xde usik ur life, so xpyh nk over... xde kutuk yg over, so xpyh nk touching.... xde nk touching pn ngn pe yg d smash, so....... juz ignore jea la.. klu men shoot2, smpai ble2 pn xslesai... ckup2 lah yee.. kt cni dh cool down.. jgn nk d tambah lg "asam,garam"... around da clock, i'm thinking.... everything dat we spoke, acted, or done in da past.. will make us being more matured... sumtimes people may be too emotional n bothering any positive aspect.. then, when the moment they realize it... they will know dat, it's a learning process actually... dun let ur feeling rules ur life, even once~~ asking 4 forgiveness?? i won't...... but, kick away all da rubbish issue.. i will~~ enough 4 diz time~~

NINIE_HISSHAM

kehidupan...yg blum pasti noktahnya..... stiap hari b'hadapan dgn pelbagai masalah... mlayan pragai manusia2 yg menjengkilkan.. skit aty!!!! tp...kne sbar... ni smua dugaan... (tuk sdapkn aty..hihi =p ) kne b'syukur ngn pe yg de.. jd nurse?? bkn impian aku & xpnah lgsg terlintas kt otak neh.. tp..arwah mak suruh.. mle2,apply kolej nursing kt Bagan Specialist, b4 msuk kolej.. kne jd care aid dlu.. perh... gle!! aku kne campak kt Accident & Emergency department.. bongek tol!! no choice...pg gak..cz mak suruh.. hehe..

1st day jd care aid, de sowg india neh accident, adoi... darah xyh ckp r... aku cm nk blah blek jea... tp aku S.A.B.A.R lg.. huk3.. ='( pas2 plak,de sorg pmpuan cina neh nk wt dressing (cuci luka) adooiiii...!!! dk jerit sakit2, aku dk jaoh sebatu tgk staff nurse wt dressing. spanjang kje ofis hour ari 2, aku lgsg xmkn..hik3.. =p xslera siot!! blek umah.. pn xmkn..mnum jerk.. yg best nye, sok 2 aku dmm. aku dh GIVE UP!! aku nanges2 xmo g dh.. tp.... sok 2, pgi lg.. aku tdengar arwah mak borak2 ngn abah.. aku curik2 dgr.. mak ckp nk crikn kolej laen tuk aku, time 2 aku dpt rse mak cm frust jea aku tekad xnk join nursing.. aku sdeh sgt2 time 2!! aku xminat nursing (tp aku ske mende bkaitan medic neh.. plek kn?), tp....cian mak..abah.. dhla spm aku maen2.. aku wt kptusan tuk penuhi keiginan mak, wt ptama kali nye.. (slalu nye aku akn bantah abes2 abesan..hihi =p)

sok 2 aku wt kptusan tuk troskn gak..hurmm, ari kedua g kje.. sister & staff2 A&E cm nk pcah prot ktawe kn aku cz aku tros dmm time 1st day kje.. siot jea!! xpe2... aku S.A.B.A.R...

ari bganti ari.. & tbe 1 ari 2, de emergency dri dialysis, sowg mak cik ni collapse.. pergh..gigil dh kaki aku~~ hurmm.. wt 1st time nye, aku tgk dpn mte usaha slamatkn org dpan mte aku.. cpr la, ecg, mcm2 la.. n... 1st time gak, org mninggal dpan mte aku.. org 2 bkn spe2 pn dlm idop aku,lgsg xknal.. tp.. aku nanges!! hurmm....

dri c2, aku beralih arah.. ke kolej milik kpj.. mak yg suruh, aku ikot jerk... ikotkn ati nk amek physio,tp lmbat sgt intake.hihi... hurmmm... time aku kt kolej,sem 1... mak kt HKL.. wt kemo & radiotrapi..bcoz of colon cancer.. aku jd mkin bsemangat nk jd nurse sbb.. aku nk jge mak =) hihi.. tp.... hurmmm... mak pg dlu sblum aku jd staff nurse.. n yg plg aku tkilan, mak pg bkn dpan mte aku.. time 2 aku kt jb..still kt kolej.. mgkin aku akn lbeh sdeh klu aku tgk mak pg dpan mte aku... tgk org laen yg bkn darah dging aku sniri mniggal pn aku dh nges... aku sniri xdpt byangkn pe akn jd kt aku time 2.. mgkin aku akn meraung skuat aty!!! mgkin aku akn mlalak cm org ilang akal...!!! tp.. time aku smpi umah, n tgk mak tbaring kaku.. aty aku seolah2 redha ngn pemergian mak....pas2 ble tgk mke mak tsenyum..aty aku tenang..cme time bce yassin dpan mak, aku sebak gle!!! cz aku tkilan xdpt jmpe mak wt kali terakhir... xpe..jnji aku nk mak taw, aku syg gle kt mak n aku troskn nursing smata2 tuk mak.......... klu mak sggup b'korban mcm2 tuk aku, ni la pengorbanan aku tuk mak wlaupn aku taw xsbesar mna....

aku cme nk mak taw... wlaupn kdg2 aku rse nk give up ngn nursing.. nyampah gle ngn staff nurse yg sengal nk mampos... skit aty ngn staff yg lgsg xhargai student.. aku akn ttp troskn impian mak.........slagi mmpu... aku akn troskn...... wpn xdpt jge mak.... at least aku dpt jge abah...akak2 aku n abg aku (c boyot! hihi =p) mak....... PERJUANGAN BLUM SELESAI......

I'M A.L.O.N.E???

i miss my mum....

i miss my dad.....

i miss my sister....

i miss my brother...

i really2 miss my family..................

& i miss my bard!! hihihihi.. =p

sometimes..i feel dat, life is unfair.......bcoz i lose da 1 dat 1 really need 4 diz moment n till d end of my life......

i really2 need her..2 share my days....my life.......but now.....

juz think about da mem0ry....da moment when she's still alive.....i can't 4get her voice.... da best part is...she will fulfill whatever i need..."by ho0k or by crook"...she is the PERFECT women & mother!!!

here she is............MY BELOVED MUM...........!!!

thanx a million bcoz u hve tac care of me........never bored teach me da lessons....

U WILL ALWEZ IN MY MIND.....IN MY HEART...

MY CARE & LOVE 4 U WILL NEVER B END.....

.EVERLASTING...!!!!